Siiiiiiiigh.

I've been feeling kind of low energy the last couple of days. Can't quite put my finger on what it is. Still doing my 800 calories per day, vitamins, lots of water, and all of that. Part of it could be the depression I'm battling. For the record, I don't have clinical depression. I'm talking about the kind of depression that comes along with kicking a severe addiction. 


I can say that I am very proud of myself. I haven't veered off the diet once. I'm not cocky enough to say I won't, but as of now, I've been compliant. 


I do have one issue that's giving me anxiety. In a couple of weeks I will be going out of state to see my best friend for our class reunion. 10 years since high school? Wow. No, I am not dieting for the reunion. Of course, I wish I had gone down this OptiFast route 6 months ago, but seeing these people is not my motivation. 


When I travel, I like to eat at new places. I like to go to places that offer something I can't get at home. You wont find me at Sbarro pizza or Red Lobster. Why visit chains when every city has their own special restaurants? My friend is pretty understanding of the fact that it will be the first time I'll be eating in a month. The doctor knows of my plans and told me to avoid high energy carbs. Lay off the bread, starches, etc.. I know that's easier said than done since carbs are my weakness. I know that my habits will not be of the healthiest variety. 


My biggest concern is coming back from my weekend of eating/drinking and going back on the OptiFast. The first week WAS hard. I craved food I didn't normally eat. As of now, the majority of my cravings are gone. My hunger pains are faint, but not a distraction. Starting over is definitely scary. 


My hope is that I've had enough success on the program by then that it will be natural to return to this method of dieting. Fingers crossed!