Two weeks.

Off to the doctor I went. Was pleasantly surprised to see the loss of 6 lbs. I was expecting 3, so 6 was great. Half of it was muscle, half fat. Not thrilled about the further muscle loss, but the first week I lost 8 lbs and only 1 lb was fat. 


I saw the doctor and he advised me to continue the OptiFast and get in more protein. To do this I should have a small meal with a serving of protein and non-starchy vegetables. 


To be perfectly honest, I was not thrilled with this advice. I am finally totally adapted to my new lifestyle of being off food. It gave me anxiety. Making my own meals means less control. There's an element of being able to say "oh, just a little more..." or worse yet, reigniting that food addiction because I remember how much I enjoy eating. 

First meal in two weeks, you'd forget to snap the picture at the start, too.

I went to dinner at Houston's with a friend. I had the ahi tuna (6 ounces) and a side of broccoli that they drizzled with lemon juice and a little Parmesan Reggiano. I had a few bites of the appetizer  salad but ate around the bacon and croutons and gave up on the greens when I realized that the "light" tossing of dressing wasn't so light. All in all, it was a good meal. I wasn't ravenous, I wasn't overly excited about eating. Only problem? When I got home I had the urge to have a snack. I didn't get one, but I realized it's going to require me adapting to an entirely new program. 


Sure, it's only one meal. A simple meal. I was used to abstaining from regular  food, now I need to adapt to a little food and that's it. The doctor said to drink 3 shakes, do 1 bar, and have my small meal. He told me not to worry about the calories just as long as it's following the guidelines I mentioned above. So, yes. I am anxious. Walking/cardio/weight training was also advised to help prevent muscle loss. 


I decided that I will give it a week of following his advice and if I find that I am not getting ideal results or if I am going off of the deep end, I'm going to ask about the Optifast that's higher protein and go to that 100%. I'm just not confident that in two weeks I have broken my addictions and bad habits. 


In the past two weeks I have lost 14 lbs. I've lost a couple noticeable inches and I feel like I can stick with this to get the rest of the weight off. My first goal is to lose 41 lbs to get back to my lowest weight ever. Once I am there, I'll re-evaluate my goals and go from there. 


New beginnings... again.